In all of the tribulations, challenges and ‘dark’ parts of my life, I never once asked, ‘Why Me, Lord?’ But I do ask the question when He sparks magic in my life. Especially those WOW moments that bring me to tears or make me immediately want to get on my knees and say a mighty THANK YOU!
It is in those moments I truly feel, yes feel, the Spirit moving. Most often I know I don’t deserve any of the goodness raining down. Many times, I am left speechless with humility. All of the times, I am reminded of just how blessed I am. It really is overwhelming.
Why Me, Lord? You saw the way I behaved, the way I acted, what I did. I have selfish ways. I swear, sometimes taking Your name in vain. I don’t instantly grant forgiveness. I ended a marriage. I envy others. I judge. I don’t go to church. I am a sinner. Yet, it never fails to amaze me, every time I hook up with fear or regret or doubt or shame or worry, You show up in subtle signs or whispers or answers to prayers or solutions to problems.
It is mind blowing and reassuring, to know, no matter what, You stay in my life.
Why Me, Lord?, I ask. I can hear You answer, Why not you? And I would respond, Thank you.